I don’t understand. How i went from cutting ties with my boyfriend, getting another one, and then losing my closest male friend (possibily only) in the process. Is this karma for unrighteous actions? I miss my ‘boring’ life. At least it was peaceful. I guess i just need to see my friends more often. I reallly hope i don’t lose them. Because they’re everything to me. School is only a secondary aspect, but indeed an important one. But..what about this current guy? I do honestly like him. But why is it that he’s so different that people must judge him and withdraw away from him? He has a good heart, he’s just been through a lot. And because he doesnt receive the trust and treatment that an average citzen would get, he does not reciprocate his trust either.
On another note, I want to stay innocent, young, and trustful. Even if there is some naivity in all that. Its what i like about myself; that i don’t think ill or alternative agendas of people. “Take it for what it is”-> that’s what i like. That’s what i will continue to believe (unless its flat out in my face that they’re lying hahah). I will be me. And sure hope that his personality will stay for the better, and not down the hill.